Painting on night sky

Sometimes, I imagine myself falling into a black hole; what will happen? When I realize that I am merely a speck of dust compared to the exponentially heavenly bodies in the limitless universe, my life seems to be in vain. A night sky makes me sentimental; makes me think a lot. However, though it feels empty, I love being under the starry night, watching the stars. In Busan, I can hardly see any stars shining in the night sky, but as I spent a month in Kang-won-do, I had many chances to take a look at the stars. Besides the stars, the astonishingly beautiful nature welcomes me here; I could wake up with a bird's chirpings or colorful sky that I have never experience so far. Nature surrounding us is so marvelous; while its own laws, law of nature, are so strict, it has mother-like, all-embracing generosity. On the way back to the dormitory at night, I saw the painting-like stars, trees, and flowers: nature and absolute truth beyond nature. Under the sky on that day, I was comforted – a moment that I will cherish forever. One day after basketball practice, my watch pointed midnight. I almost tumbled while staring at the twinkling of the stars. The Orion, Big Dipper in the midst of numerous other stars delighted me. The fact that I could see what was hidden to others in the streetlights of Seoul made me feel special. Pure awe fills me as I feel like a tiny speck of dust between the stars and the grand, enormous universe. Meanwhile, the stars remind me of mother, making me go into a mode of slight melancholy. Her interest in art led her to paint an oil painting of Vincent Van Gogh’s Starry Night. In my mind, the brightness and position of the stars somehow seemed to resemble the stars in her painting. All these emotions came flooding in, along with some which I could not verify, seizing me with confusion. I dream of an astrophysicist who interacts with the marvelous and benevolent nature. Despite the demanding process that awaits me in order to reach my goal of becoming an astrophysicist, it attracts me to step into that harsh process, for I yearn to discover one definite and clear formula that explains the natural phenomena we observe. In the book ‘The Old Man and the Sea’, the old fisherman treats nature with great respect. Like the old fisherman, I also want to step a little bit back from the fast-changing society and take some time to appreciate the environment around me. I first heard of celestial bodies through my father right after I graduated elementary school. Back then, I couldn’t understand why humans should study the universe, even though there is no direct correlation with our daily lives and the complex and abstruse fields of astronomy. However, the night sky that I saw while camping with my father in Mil-yang totally changed my view towards life, and finally got me to dream of becoming an astrophysicist. My camping experience filled me with wonder with every single object existing. I started to be passionate towards these infinite beings, fascinated by the existence of the huge celestial bodies that seem so far away. We still do not fully understand the laws of the universe. With my immense curiosity as a weapon, I will collect information and unlock the door of secrets.

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